I just went back and read all the posts I’ve ever posted on my blog. I have not posted anything for almost a year now. It was really awesome to go back and read everything. It’s crazy how life changes things and perspectives. I’m debating whether I should start blogging again. It really is a good way to document life and get my thoughts organized. I’m not sure if I can stay consistent though. Life is crazy busy lately.
Well it’s official, the holidays are upon us! I love this time of the year! It’s probably the child that’s still in me, but something about the spirit of the season really makes me happy. This feeling of goodwill stays with me from Thanksgiving to New Years day, and I look forward to it all year. 🙂
Right now I’m sitting and planning my Thanksgiving menu, Christmas music playing in the background. Some of the best music ever written, is Christmas music! It’s always so uplifting and happy. Today’s world can use as much happy as possible, particularly since we are inundated with one bad news story after another.
I look forward to slowing down and spending time with my family. Holiday gatherings are some of my most treasured memories. I really hope that I can make sure my son experiences the warmth and love of the season, just like I did when I was a kid. Most importantly, I hope I can eventually teach him the true meaning of why we celebrate. The message of hope and joy that the Christ child brought to this cold desolate world, when he was born in a humble manger.
God Bless you, and may you feel the spirit of the season!
Self Worth… Who gives it to us.. and what determines it? Is it something I can give myself?? Is it determined by our talents.. our looks… our paychecks, our accomplishments??? Lately I have been thinking about my value as a person, as a wife, a mother, a daughter, a Christian, a friend, a member of society… and so on. This value is so often manipulated by the world around us.. whether it be by our relationships.. good or bad, or the media and pop-culture, which idolizes a certain type or trait. This constant shift in the degree of perceived value has me reeling at times. It causes me to grasp for something that gives me intrinsic value.. This is a worth that is given in spite of myself.. for my own sake.. or in its own right. Our society likes to flout the importance of self esteem… but I’m referring to something deeper.
It seems that more and more people are having a hard time finding the intrinsic value in life, particularly their own life. It seems I can’t go a week without hearing about a person who decides that his or her life has no more value. Suicide is rampant today, and it is hitting a younger and younger population. Not only do people not find value in their own life, when they take theirs, they often take the life of another with them. Why is it so many people find no value in life?? Life intrinsically, despite its success or failure??
Questions.. I ask many questions. I don’t have many answers. However, when I examine myself personally, I find that I am searching for worth in the wrong places. I search for it in the eyes of others. I search for it in my talents and my material possessions. Yet I often find so little self- worth there, leaving me feeling lonely, dejected and hopeless. Yet when I think even deeper.. I realized something stunning… The only place I found intrinsic value my whole life, is at the foot of the cross. There I find that despite my failures, my disappointments, I have value. I am unconditionally loved. Now I’m not here to preach. But I must say, that the only constant value I can find in life itself, is in the majesty and miracle of its creation. Thus I turn to its Creator to give me value, to show me why I live despite the evil that often surrounds me. …and when I allow myself to understand this, life becomes precious! My life is precious, purposeful, and valuable.
God help me! I want to live with this understanding as my motivation!
We are leaving for vacation tonight! We are heading to Cape Cod. We spend time there every summer, and I find it to be one of the most relaxing places. My family has been going there since I was a little kid, so there are a lot of great memories associated with the place. I’m really glad that now my little guy has the opportunity to go there too! I’m looking forward to exploring the beach with him. He has been there twice already, but he is finally at an age where he actually understands and loves playing in the sand and looking at boats.
I just have to finish packing and we are on our way! Yay!
Ok, so I have not blogged in a very long time. Mostly it was due to the fact that my computer got a virus and was acting slow and glitchy, thus making blogging tedious. However we just purchased a brand-spanking-new lap top, and I am excited to get back into blogging. I also got a better camera. so hopefully I can take some better pictures too.
I’m thinking of taking a slightly different direction with this blog.. maybe even changing up the front page a bit. We shall see…
Until then.. I just want to say “It’s good to be back!”